I remember reading in one of my old journal attempts about what I wanted to be when I grow up. Sometimes at night I'd lay in my bed and picture myself in the future doing/being one of these things. At the time, when I was about 10, I had many, *ahem* varying interests.
They were:
1. A Wife and Mother; I mentally added, "Before that..."
2. A Writer
3. Maybe a fashion designer ('maybe' being a key word)
I know there might havebeen one or two more but they escape me at the moment. :)
After my horrible sketching/drawing attempts, I gave up my fashion designer 'dream' because all I kept drawing was wedding gowns and characters from books. (Big suprise there?!)
I still write and hope to at least self-publish (eventually) the book I'm currently working on now. However I don't want to have a career outside the home as a writer. I can still write from home! But I am content and happy with writing stories, novels, and articles.....not to mention all my schoolwork writing assignments. :)
My one 'dream' that has stayed true and steady since I was little was to eventually be married, run my own home and have children. Since I've grown older, that 'dream' is becoming almost a reality. It's the desire of my heart. At my mother's feet I am learning to do all the practical and useful things a wife and mother does. I learn mostly by doing, watching, listening and inquiring. At times I have a discontented heart because I can't do the things I feel are best in our home. Mum gently reminds me that it is HER home and she knows best. And that the Lord knows best for placing me in this home with this particular family. Mum hardly ever says this with a harsh tone or impatient countenance. Instead she lovingly guides me and instructs me with never a complaint. A very good character lesson I'm learning through this is to keep my heart under my parent's leadership and authority; as I will someday when I am married.
Pride is one area I struggle in, with many different faces. How can, when I'm married, be content and humble under my husband's leadership with a prideful heart?! How can I listen to advice or opinions of my husband if I can't do so now with my parents without snapping at them? I am so thankful that the Lord is slowly molding and shaping my heart through my parents discipline and love. I'm so glad that I know the Lord and I am being raised by the most wonderful parents. :) Though sometimes I may grumble at the slightly cluttered condition of the counters, or throw a disrespectful retort towards one of my parents out of pain or anger, my parents lovingly and gently correct me and I'm reminded of God's grace and love when I hear the words from my Mum or Dad, "Of course I forgive you!"
The desire of my heart is to be a wife, homemaker and mother someday. I hope to be as good and wonderful a wife, mother and homemaker as Mum is. But more than anything I want to be the wife, homemaker and mother the Lord wants me to be someday.
The Keepers at Home Goal:
To have a teachable spirit so that I can master the different crafts and skills which will enable me to become a competent, well-balanced Christian girl who loves God, and who will one day be a proper helpmeet and keeper at home.
*This future hope-to-be 'keeper at home' needs to get some shut eye!*