Today was one of those days...I was up most of the night and out of bed at 4:45am with pain....pain so intense, that it made me cry....and cry out to God. I found myself, while waiting for pain meds to kick in....crying out to my Father...but continuously, my mind was drawn to pray for others....a friend going thru a divorce, my mom who was having tests at the hospital all day....for my great-aunt who is very ill and in the hospital, for a dear friend who's mom just passed away yesterday...and for my husband, who only has 4 more weeks of working 3 jobs...but for now, is exhausted and stressed.
I wasn't much good to my children this morning...couldn't concentrate thru the pain...the meds didn't help, and yesterday, my little ones had way too many "goodies" at a birthday party...so they were tired and couldn't concentrate either. In spite of my pain and fatigue....in spite of my little ones withdrawing from the sugar and food coloring they ingested yesterday...somehow, learning still occured for them (thanks in part to my wonderful daughter, Meghan)....and I was drawn ever closer to my Father.
I was led to choose a book off of my shelf entitled " The Journey" by Billy Graham. I've had this book for years...always meaning to read it, but today...I opened up to the chapter on pain. Friends...my Father knows exactly what I need when I need it!
After he describes his wife, Ruth's chronic, debilitating pain....he leads us back to the comfort of God's word....His love letter to us. Psalm 31:15 says "My times are in your hands"..... "Though He brings grief, He will show compassion, so great is His unfailing love." Lamentations 3:32 He goes on to suggest 2 ways that will help us thru chronic pain: #1 Be on guard against pain's dangers...focusing on self (on the pain) and ignoring others around them...falling into the trap of self-pity or bitterness. He goes on to suggest one way to counter-act these feelings is to pray for OTHERS and their needs... and to count your blessings....LOOK for reasons to praise Him...and always be thankful.
#2 Ask God to help you learn the lessons inherent with chronic pain. God can use it for our good....it causes us to depend on Him for everything...minute by minute. As I write this...my little ones are bathed and ready for bed, my older daughters cleaned up the dinner that I managed to prepare for my family...and I realize the day is almost over...when I wondered how I would ever get thru this day at 5am this morning....and looking back....oh, how He helped me! He brought a dear friend to me this afternoon....a hot shower helped....and once I focused on serving my family and just trying to "do the next thing"....He helped me...and I am so grateful!
"The Lord is near to all who call on Him...to all who call on Him in truth." Psalm 145:18 and "The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms" Deuteronomy 33:27
To quote Mr. Billy Graham "Earth's troubles fade in light of heaven's hope." So...as my day ends, may I encourage those of you who are in pain....who suffer...draw closer to God...He loves you so much and will carry you thru your pain and suffering. May I end with a verse that has uplifted me and comforted me for many years.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" 2Corinthians 12:9
~Sue~